Latepost~ just an update

Salam,

Korea

I knw that i did say that im gonna update on the korea trip. But well what am i kidding. Im just a normal human being that forget a lot of stuff, escpecially when thr a lots of things happening around these days. Korea was great and im planning on having a second trip thr soon.insyallah. next blog will be picture and info on that trip k.

Me and mr ego(past tense)

Life has been great lately, but lemme summarize my early 2015 feels like to me. January was tough, february was frustrating, mac was depressing and finally letting that someone go and april was the recovering and back to old self anddd finally giving that chance to that person that claims "LOVE". I dont why, but somehow i feels like this person deserve the chance to prove his words. Well i finally practice on my own so called "love principles" that u loving someone and expect to much of him will gain nothing but heartache. It is better to learn to love someone that love you. Give that chance to him. Trust me, with acceptance that feeling will came along. If it doesnt, just be true to him. coz if he love u enough, he will understand. Thats the beauty of understanding by the way~. Well it works for me. My decisions to let the person go was the best decisions. He dont appreciates u yet he claimed that all the wrong was on u. Egoistic and self centered (thats him). Im still recovering and its a lie if i say he meant nothing to me. But all he ever did was hurting me and bring me down to my lowest. Emotionally depressed and broken. Sometimes it even feels like been thrown a brick on your face. Thats the end of it. No more.

Me and mr sotong

Its only the beginning. I learn to love him more these days. Everytime im having that doubtful moment or maybe i was thinking too much, he will hold me strong and tell me all the rite things to make me feel better again. He understand me and i understand him. We accept each other flaws. I guess thats why we became good friends. It took him 2 years to make me see that and finally have the courage to let me knw his feelings. And it took me 2 years to notice that. Well maybe i should just wait and see, pray for the best. Like i said its only the beginning.

korea~

ITS KOREA!!

i cant wait for our incoming trip to KOREA!!!!.. me, yul and dila~ well dila practically did all the research, guesthouse booking and our 10 days itinerary. 6 may till 16 may. yahhh 10 days. tamaha kan mo bejalan. nasib baikk ada ko dilong~

i got this mix feeling right nw.. i just cant sleep, nervous, and excited all at the same time.. its my first travel that far.. i mean come on! 10 hours flight..weheee. we need to be prepared for any unplan circumstances..dont put that much high expectation on our itinerary... pluss im gonna miss my munyit~ heehehe. take care of yourself ah.. tunggu saya balik~

im gonna update more on our incoming trip soon..more picture to come. heheheh.. hope everything goes well as planned.. aminnn. but right nw i need my packing list and i still need to work tomorow and the day after. 

hmmm oklah.. bedtime~ sleep2.  assalamualaikumm ~

silent

Talk about silent..im expressing myself thru silence these days. ah well~ seriously..im done trying, im done fixing everything all by myself, im done trying to make him understand that this isnt easy for me too. but this must end... its the rite things to do. 

Gonna keep tellin myself this.... stop being hurt and stop hurting. and for that, THIS MUST END. 

 stop being a fool.... u deserve better.. u worth it. i think everyone needs to know their worth. im not judging nor complaining.. im just doing what i can to make things rite again. be me again.. i guess this is the end of KITA. if you done trying..then im done too. im gonna step away... so that u dont have to choose. ive once told u that.. maybe im the one who need to step away.. mengalah.. but u said NO.  despite everything u said.. u did the same mistakes again..ignoring me..for weeks. and that was the last straw.. no more.

IM DONE...

Monday post

salam,

its monday and most regular working ppl, gov servants, students got that thing called "monday blues" kemalasan melanda di hari isnin. why is that? weekends just not enough anymore..more day off plss. lets face it people..we need to get back to reality, which is no work no money for food, internet, clothes, travel and bejoli. and for students my advice is embrace your student life already.. work life can be hectic, boring and time consuming. believe me~ i miss student life. even if u have not enough money but that is the most enjoy phase/moment in your life. uve got friends.. creating that memory like kurik tabung gara2 mo main game d cyber.. hahahah. your responsibility is simply to study and get good grades. the working world is not all rainbow and joy.. most of the time it can be boring.. more additional responsibilities. paying the bills, foods, clothes.. ah well adulthood. here we go againn~~ your friends mostly far far away.. some get married and busy with children new life and all.. some got busy with work and work.. no more fun time.. and occasionally thrs time we call "reunion" whr u can judge your fellow friend life.. howd the end up. success or no success. suprise suprise.

anywayy..enjoy your monday ppl..be thankful that youre still aliive and well. syukur alhamdulillah. so im going to share some of what monday is in islam.

lets read and muhasabh diri.

Kelebihan Hari Isnin.

Daripada Abu Qatadah al-Ansari berkata: Rasullulah s.a.w. ditanya sahabat tentang kelaziman baginda berpuasa pada setiap isnin. Maka Baginda bersabda: " Padanya Aku dilahirkan dan padanya Wahyu yang pertama diturunkan".

Hari Isnin adalah hari Pelayaran dan Perniagaan. Oleh yang demikian bagi sesiapa yang ingin berlayar atau yang ingin membuat perjalanan, maka seelok-eloknya lakukanlah pada hari Isnin.

Selain dari itu, umat Islam juga digalakkan untuk berpuasa sunat pada Isnin. Abu Hurairah meriwatkan bahawa Baginda Rasulullah bersabda: "Dibentangkan amalan-amalan di hadapan Allah s.w.t. pada hari Isnin dan hari Khamis. Maka aku menyukai dibentang amalan ku dihadapan Allah s.w.t pada ketika aku berpuasa".(Riwayat Imam Termidzi).

Peristiwa Yang Berlaku Pada hari Isnin.

1. Nabi Idris a.s. naik ke langit.

2. Nabi Musa a.s.  telah pergi ke bukit Thursina, untuk menerima wahyu.

3. Turunnya Dalil tentang ke-Esa-an Allah s.w.t.

4. Lahirnya Nabi Muhamad s.a.w.

5. Malaikat Jibrail turun buat pertama kaliya bertemu dengan Baginda Rasulullah. 

6. Wafatnya Baginda Rasullullah s.a.w.

Zikir Hari Isnin.

"La Haula Wala Quwwata Illa Billahi" maknanya - Tiada daya dan kekuatan( untuk menolak sesuatu kemudaratan dan mendatangkan suatu yang munafaat) selain Allah s.w.t.

Fadilat Zikir.

Rasullulah bersabda maksudnya, " Sesiapa yang mengucapkan La Haula Wala Quwwata Illa Billahi, maka ia akan menjadi ubat kepada 99 penyakit. Yang paling ringan adalah kebimbangan" (Hadis Riwayat Tabrani). 

la tahzan

askm wbt,

tiba rajin tulis blog.. mesti ada sbb kan. to express your feelings. hari ini hari jujur sedunia nama dia.
 1) to be honest is to stay true.
2) to be honest is to be faithfull. to yourself and the one u love.
3) to be honest is not hurting someone else for your happiness.
4) to be honest is to stop being childish and move on already.
5) to be honest is crying your heart out without anyone noticing.
6) to be honest is not able to say that u love someone because u dont wnat to complicate things.
7) to be honest is to let someone u truly love go so that he can move on.
8) to be honest is to be yourself.

AND TO BE HONEST.. MY HEART DONT SAY THE SAME ANYMORE.. MY LOVE HAS FADE FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE. what he make me do, making me to be that person.. making me the wrong person, the bad person, the third person in his life.. but then i go on and make the same mistake by falling for the person with similar situation..

cant sleep

assalamualaikum,
its 1.40 am and my eyes just tooooo stuborn to shut. and its been like this for a week nw. bikin badmud skaliii. ahh well maybe i just got too much to think before bed. just a lot. nvr in my life i experience this kind of feeling.. thoughts.. and maybe even love. ah well..im not that love dovey clingy or dependent type of girl.... im just not like that,

come on lah nurul.. u knw this is so wrong.. but mcm lagu c selena gomez, the heart wants what it wants, im just confused rite nw.. i knw he love me. i knw that.. i do. and the feeling is mutual. knplah skrg br begini..why not dr dulu zmn2 study duloo. why nw? im just too old for this kinda stuff nw. and he is too young. so many question and im not even sure if ive got all the answer.

i knw myself well. im not that much of a saint. tp im sure im not that bad type of a person either.. i always think before saying or do anything. maybe a lil bit too much. and nw im listening to benzoloo while writing all this stuff. hmmmm. i need a getaway frm all this.. but i cant just run and pretend like nothing happen. im just not that person. but nw im glad. HE started to get me. no more diam2.no more ignore2. nda puas hati ckp straight to my face. sy bukan ada kuasa baca pikiran orgkannn. sy nda suka men teka2. mls. despite all the things ive done to hurt HIM. he stay.. despite all the things he done to hurt ME. i stay. is this love??? seriously? tp bila pikir2 blk.. i give him nothing.. he gave me nothing.. all we ever did is talk.. long conversation about everything until we've lost track of time. its simple.. we found each other because of that comfort feeling talking about whats popping out frm our mind at that time. private stuff about life, family and LOVE. despite all the fights.. the breakup and the makeup.. we're still together. but still.. this is just not fair.. not fair to ME, HIM and HER.

i need to put myself together and settle everything once and for all. betul ckp kwn sy. stop wasting my time. maybe i deserve someone better in life.that i should set my standards a lil bit higher kan. stop being childish. maybe i should start being the bigger person in this relationship. END this.. walk away..

but despite knowing all this.. why in the world KITA still together. maybe ur rite..KISAH kita belum the END lagi. we nvr knw. but i knw that deep down inside ada tu "if only", "what if". i need to stop being sad.. "la tahzan.. rabunaa ma' ana". Allah SWT tau.. jodoh, ajal, maut di tangan dia yg maha esa. kita patut besyukur sbb dgn dugaan kecil beginilah kita tau.. Allah SWT menguji hambanya kerana mahu kita sedar dari kekhilafan diri.. be a better person.. redha dengan takdir and ketentuannya, bersyukur, and most importantly sentiasa ingat dan berdoa.. i need to remind myself about this over and over again.. manusiakan muda lupa... cukuplah smpi cni.. merapu sudah telampau.

"k" bai.

weight and fat~ please go away.

salam all...its been a while..im sure. lalalala

ivee been super duper busy this year.. forgot about my mission on updating my blog regularly. we got this sports stuff di opiss..and my bro got engaged..and my cousin just got married..hmmm what else? thats just it..  and not to forget teda yg baru pasal yours tru;y "me", oh wait..ive lost some weight..try on losing more for health reason. so i can live healthy and happy..and senang shopping baju hehehe.

speaking about weight and fat. ive just learned that losing weight is not all about "not eating". its about eating right. my past experience on dieting i tried to cut all carbs and sugar intake.. i ate like 1 time a day..and when i got hungry i will just consume lots of water and its working..i lost more than 10kg at that time in a very short period..but i look tired and lamasss all the time. sikit lagi pingsan owhh. . but when i stop, i gained back the 10kg i lost in like a month or so. this kind of diet made my body weak. dissapointing i knw.. but now my diet is all about eating right and quantity.. and never skip breakfast. i eat almost anything i want, but watch out! everything came in small amount. eg. this morning i ate like quarter plate of fried rice with fried chicken (dont sound healthy at all kan).heavy but again..small amount and it still  keep my tummy full till lunch. i even try to avoid eating anything after 6pm.. its ok if i still eat but againnn small amount.. like my uncle said to me "eat whatever you want to while you still can..when you got old and sick everything  you can eat is tasteless porridge and plain water..while your dessert will be medicine and vitamins.. at that time you gonna regret it."...choosing your meal could be tricky..but what the heck~ live your life your own way but dont ignore the important stuff like health. anyways everyone got different type of body so you gonna have to find your type of diet that suit you the best.

well i think thats all for now its almost maghrib time. wassalam..