askm wbt,
tiba rajin tulis blog.. mesti ada sbb kan. to express your feelings. hari ini hari jujur sedunia nama dia.
1) to be honest is to stay true.
2) to be honest is to be faithfull. to yourself and the one u love.
3) to be honest is not hurting someone else for your happiness.
4) to be honest is to stop being childish and move on already.
5) to be honest is crying your heart out without anyone noticing.
6) to be honest is not able to say that u love someone because u dont wnat to complicate things.
7) to be honest is to let someone u truly love go so that he can move on.
8) to be honest is to be yourself.
AND TO BE HONEST.. MY HEART DONT SAY THE SAME ANYMORE.. MY LOVE HAS FADE FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE. what he make me do, making me to be that person.. making me the wrong person, the bad person, the third person in his life.. but then i go on and make the same mistake by falling for the person with similar situation..
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Friday, March 20, 2015
cant sleep
assalamualaikum,
its 1.40 am and my eyes just tooooo stuborn to shut. and its been like this for a week nw. bikin badmud skaliii. ahh well maybe i just got too much to think before bed. just a lot. nvr in my life i experience this kind of feeling.. thoughts.. and maybe even love. ah well..im not that love dovey clingy or dependent type of girl.... im just not like that,
come on lah nurul.. u knw this is so wrong.. but mcm lagu c selena gomez, the heart wants what it wants, im just confused rite nw.. i knw he love me. i knw that.. i do. and the feeling is mutual. knplah skrg br begini..why not dr dulu zmn2 study duloo. why nw? im just too old for this kinda stuff nw. and he is too young. so many question and im not even sure if ive got all the answer.
i knw myself well. im not that much of a saint. tp im sure im not that bad type of a person either.. i always think before saying or do anything. maybe a lil bit too much. and nw im listening to benzoloo while writing all this stuff. hmmmm. i need a getaway frm all this.. but i cant just run and pretend like nothing happen. im just not that person. but nw im glad. HE started to get me. no more diam2.no more ignore2. nda puas hati ckp straight to my face. sy bukan ada kuasa baca pikiran orgkannn. sy nda suka men teka2. mls. despite all the things ive done to hurt HIM. he stay.. despite all the things he done to hurt ME. i stay. is this love??? seriously? tp bila pikir2 blk.. i give him nothing.. he gave me nothing.. all we ever did is talk.. long conversation about everything until we've lost track of time. its simple.. we found each other because of that comfort feeling talking about whats popping out frm our mind at that time. private stuff about life, family and LOVE. despite all the fights.. the breakup and the makeup.. we're still together. but still.. this is just not fair.. not fair to ME, HIM and HER.
i need to put myself together and settle everything once and for all. betul ckp kwn sy. stop wasting my time. maybe i deserve someone better in life.that i should set my standards a lil bit higher kan. stop being childish. maybe i should start being the bigger person in this relationship. END this.. walk away..
but despite knowing all this.. why in the world KITA still together. maybe ur rite..KISAH kita belum the END lagi. we nvr knw. but i knw that deep down inside ada tu "if only", "what if". i need to stop being sad.. "la tahzan.. rabunaa ma' ana". Allah SWT tau.. jodoh, ajal, maut di tangan dia yg maha esa. kita patut besyukur sbb dgn dugaan kecil beginilah kita tau.. Allah SWT menguji hambanya kerana mahu kita sedar dari kekhilafan diri.. be a better person.. redha dengan takdir and ketentuannya, bersyukur, and most importantly sentiasa ingat dan berdoa.. i need to remind myself about this over and over again.. manusiakan muda lupa... cukuplah smpi cni.. merapu sudah telampau.
"k" bai.
its 1.40 am and my eyes just tooooo stuborn to shut. and its been like this for a week nw. bikin badmud skaliii. ahh well maybe i just got too much to think before bed. just a lot. nvr in my life i experience this kind of feeling.. thoughts.. and maybe even love. ah well..im not that love dovey clingy or dependent type of girl.... im just not like that,
come on lah nurul.. u knw this is so wrong.. but mcm lagu c selena gomez, the heart wants what it wants, im just confused rite nw.. i knw he love me. i knw that.. i do. and the feeling is mutual. knplah skrg br begini..why not dr dulu zmn2 study duloo. why nw? im just too old for this kinda stuff nw. and he is too young. so many question and im not even sure if ive got all the answer.
i knw myself well. im not that much of a saint. tp im sure im not that bad type of a person either.. i always think before saying or do anything. maybe a lil bit too much. and nw im listening to benzoloo while writing all this stuff. hmmmm. i need a getaway frm all this.. but i cant just run and pretend like nothing happen. im just not that person. but nw im glad. HE started to get me. no more diam2.no more ignore2. nda puas hati ckp straight to my face. sy bukan ada kuasa baca pikiran orgkannn. sy nda suka men teka2. mls. despite all the things ive done to hurt HIM. he stay.. despite all the things he done to hurt ME. i stay. is this love??? seriously? tp bila pikir2 blk.. i give him nothing.. he gave me nothing.. all we ever did is talk.. long conversation about everything until we've lost track of time. its simple.. we found each other because of that comfort feeling talking about whats popping out frm our mind at that time. private stuff about life, family and LOVE. despite all the fights.. the breakup and the makeup.. we're still together. but still.. this is just not fair.. not fair to ME, HIM and HER.
i need to put myself together and settle everything once and for all. betul ckp kwn sy. stop wasting my time. maybe i deserve someone better in life.that i should set my standards a lil bit higher kan. stop being childish. maybe i should start being the bigger person in this relationship. END this.. walk away..
but despite knowing all this.. why in the world KITA still together. maybe ur rite..KISAH kita belum the END lagi. we nvr knw. but i knw that deep down inside ada tu "if only", "what if". i need to stop being sad.. "la tahzan.. rabunaa ma' ana". Allah SWT tau.. jodoh, ajal, maut di tangan dia yg maha esa. kita patut besyukur sbb dgn dugaan kecil beginilah kita tau.. Allah SWT menguji hambanya kerana mahu kita sedar dari kekhilafan diri.. be a better person.. redha dengan takdir and ketentuannya, bersyukur, and most importantly sentiasa ingat dan berdoa.. i need to remind myself about this over and over again.. manusiakan muda lupa... cukuplah smpi cni.. merapu sudah telampau.
"k" bai.
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