Monday, November 19, 2012

pray for gaza.

salam, its tuesday morning. baru mau kasi panas enjin before start my daily work; so ive decided to read some news. the recent news that really hit people all over the world with sadnest and anger towards israel. im trying to find the best words to describe the feeling of people in gaza but when i try to type it, it will always end with me pressing the backspace button. theres no words can describe the attacks and cruelty of israeli towards gaza. this just made me feel like i want to do or at least say something to people in gaza like stay strong, people all around the world got you back. we hate israel! we condemn israel!...but the truth is israeli still attacks gaza. many people have died and injured. innocent children died for something that they dont even understand.

'At least 105 people have died in the Gaza Strip in six days of violence, Hamas officials say, as Israeli forces continue their bombardment' - BBC News.

you can read full news here - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-middle-east-20391558

whatever the israeli reasons were, war was never the answer, killing was never the answer, violent and cruelty was never the answer or solution!. as for today, as a muslim and a human being. let us all pray for gaza and pray for the war/attacks to end.


"ya Allah please save our brother and sister, please give them strength and save them from the violent and cruelty of the Zionis Regime. amin ya rabbal alamin"

wassalam..

Thursday, November 15, 2012

salam jumaat..

salam jumaat buat semua muslimin muslimat sekalian..semoga hari ini membawa lebih rahmat dan barakah dari Allah SWT hendaknya  . aminn. seluruh umat islam baru sahaja menyambut kehadiran awal muharam iaitu tahun baru bagi umat islam. so, apa azam baru tahun ini? me personally, as a muslim; azam baru tahun ini ialah untuk menjadi seorang muslim yang lebih baik dari segi ibadah dan juga kebajikan. i want to be a better person by trying to be a better muslim, daughter, sister, niece, grandchild, friend and worker to everyone. leaving the bitter past and trying on making an owesome future from it. The most important ialah mencari kerja yang lebih baik insyallah. its been tough for me after graduation. job hunting is not an easy task for me. i need more motivation and a clear mission and vision on what i really wanted. bukan mahu jadi cerewet atau memilih kerja but seriously ive done all. waitressing, salesperson, and clerk job. im not looking for high position job. cukuplah sekadar kerja yang really make me happy doing. job that help me to be a better person, not a job that make me the crapiest person. kerja yang membolehkan saya spend time dengan family secukupnya, kerja yang sederhana. and to be honest im not looking to be the richest person or the most successful person. i know berjaya dalam hidup ialah pencapaian yang di impikan semua orang.its a good thing. im sorry yang cita2 saya ialah untuk menjadi orang yang sederhana and simple. im not looking forward to have my name in the "most successful person on earth" book. being happy and simple are the best! but clearly im not even close to that for now. i love my job, but the salary sucks! thats what dissapointed me the most. my new years resolution as a person and citizen of Malaysia. defi nitely looking/searching for better job. btw my dream of becoming a simple and aspiring teacher is not dead yet. im still looking forward on that. im inspired to become a teacher when most of my family members are teacher. my experience as a replacement teacher for 3 month really just made my mind on becoming a real teacher. its amazed me to see children progress in study and to see the concentration in something simple like "draw a bear". i still remember how quite it was. bunyi burung pipit sayup2 pun macam dengar bunyi dari speaker. concentrating in that one simple task that they dont even noticed that time flew fast. time mengajar budak2 pra sekolah was the best experience ever. to be able to help them in a way that really just make you feel so good and happy. the kids didnt just learned from me. but i did learn from them as well. as an adult we grew older and age took all the simplicity and the fun of being a kid. when im around them all that memory come back to me like a meteor. the kids has truly taught me about honesty, hardwork, friendship, sharing, caring, helping, and being happy.~ kudos to all lucky teacher out there. being a teacher is a gift! everyday dapat pahala berlipat kali ganda sebagai seorng guru. so embrace it, be happy, dont be to hard on your students and yourself, enjoy every moment of it and most importantly carry it honestly and sincerely. well thats all for today..salam maal hijrah semua~

wassalam.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

manners and kesabaran

salam thursday all.
today is like any other regular day for me, except the part where people around keep showing less and less and less manners among each other. it requires great patient (kesabaran) on handling this matters. as an example like what happen this morning when this white collar and respective man start shouting at you for the reason that you already gave to him. macam no use in explaining to him over and over again.."sir, we have no record of this." so crystal clear..but he keep insisting on "so, what can u do?". well guess what?? "NOTHING"!!. no record means no record. nothing i can do.. i can give you some suggestion. but in my work field theres nothing i can do ok! its like hes asking me bring that kfc chicken back alive. its out of my control man! but no..nda pandai faham.. and keep insisting to bring this things forward to my superior. what can he do???there NO RECORD. be creativelah. find other way. so what if youre dealing and need to explain it with tan sri or datuk. nyamuk yang di marah. kelambu yang di bakar! nonsense. u got a job worth almost 10k per month. if you cant use that big head of yours to find a solution u better quit and give your position to somebody who actually got more brain than you! and honestly..this is my honest opinion on people like you..well anyway like i said early..kesabaran sangat penting..so all i have to do is calm my self deal this things as best as you can. rememer nurul! "treat others the  way you want to be treated"!


Sunday, November 4, 2012

to let go~the hardest thing ever!

hello all, asalamualaikum. this is my second post for today.
clearly today is one of the hardest and annoying day ever!. the hardest because i have to let go 1 of my kitty cat. i know its time for me to let go one of them eventually. i cannot afford to take care too many kitty cat. every single person at home complaining about the smell, the cat food, the white fur everywhere.. etc 2! to actually selling one of my cutest kitty is my hardest thing ever but it could be my best choice or worse. im gonna miss u kapas!!! (picture)im hoping they will take a good care of you more than i have been to u.be good to your new owner k...wuuuuuuu~. 

Anyway lets skip that hardest thing and move to the annoying thing!. ive been helping people out by them paying me to do their assignment. i mean im getting rm100-200 per question is not bad at all!( not complaining). dapat jua lebih pocket moneykan. so, all i have to do is do their assignment like english writing, management, admin..etc 2. almost everything other than math/finance/account etc2. so long story short- the usual assignment required 3000words/10-11 pages per question/paper. last month i was visit by this kaka. she asked me to help her with her english communication/oral speech, writing and principle management. since the beginning start suda berat hati cam ada yang nda berapa kena di hati kunun~. but that kaka asked me for help because she cannot do it herself because of work, family and shes pregnant. so, i said ok. maybe its my fault for asking her to remind me before deadline. but since that day shes been all over me on her assignment because she is "nervous" because she need to present that paper and i get that!..its hard to present something that was done by other people, the devil in me start whispering "maybe you would not be that nervous when you're doing the assignment yourself'.istigfar nurul...thats bad thinking!then suddenly she asked me to finish the assignment early because her lecturer want to check it before actual submission. so in hurry i have to find more information and more writing to finished her assignment complete with the powerpoint presentation. even after a tiring and long day filled with activities, i went home and stayed up all night try to finish the assignment. so..tada!!!its the day promised to submit the assignment to her. she texted me " so sorry, no checking with lecturer..im just nervous and want u to finish it early so i can be more ready with presentation..she tricked me!!! the dateline is 18 nov. its 30th freaking october! my courier service to overseas can reach faster before the dateline. and btw she just gonna submit it "online". will took few minutes! not hour!!not days!!how annoying is that.??! anyways...im just gonna keep reminding myself to be more sincere in everything i do and keep calm and just do everything, not gonna complain~....
lets get back to the story.so i asked her if i can just email the assignment and it would be mo easy and "fast", but again she need to meet me up so that i can explain to her about the oral presentation paper that she asked me to do.of course!!!!i need to explain everything.im the tutor now!!waitt..no! its my work! of course im the only one that can explain it. anyway, she text-ed me yesterday to meet up today to submit 2 English assignment because shes gonna meet up with her lecturer. so she asked me to also finish up the second assignment paper. again another no sleep night for me because i juts start on the paper and figured i still got plenty of time before the dateline to finish that one~ so in 2 more hours we gonna meet up. but guess what~she text-ed me again few minutes ago."i cant go meet with you today. i will collect the assignment wednesday and i gonna collect all 3 of the assignment..plss finish that one too.tq". what???now youre playing games with me!!!~ the other assignment is not due till 19-22nd nov. gosh!! its not like i have no other job to do! REGRET!!menyesal!!!. sibuk mo tolong orang lainkan. i knw shes paying me to do this but come on! what happen to early notice..im not a robot. thats the end of it!..after this no more assignment!! nda mo suda buat assignment untuk orang lain. and my advice ecspecially kepada PJJ student di luar sana. bila suda ambl keputusan untuk study.sebusy mana sekalipun..pleaseelah do your assignment/task yourself. barulah namanya study..if you ask others to do it for you. you will got nothing!! zero!!rugi belajar. ni yang di namakan sijil beli....and pengajaran for me. find other side income! not this! oklah this post semakin panjang and melalut..good day ppl!! now im sad and hungry!! 

blogger "attention seeker"??

salam all!! osonong kesuabon! its monday yippeeee!!!
its been a while. and i bet all my post were so limited edition hahahahah. i dont even knw what that means. anyway ive been super busy lately with life, works..etc. yesterday i was watching this program jamilah ( nda brapa igt plak nm program dia). they were discussing this matter on blogger as an "attention seeker". they actually agreed on that because..well blogging is all about expressing yourself rite~ i just blog when i fell like i wanna write something, generally about everything that i can share publicly. i prefer to write once in a while.its my way to release burden on my shoulder when im thinking to much. pouring it all in my blog is like a medicine for my stress and tiredness. sometimes my head is flowing with ideas and thoughts. jadi bila suda ada idea tu capat2lah tuliskan. my blog has always been a medium for me to remind myself of the great memory/past that i wrote. brings the old memory back..trus macam feel alive and naik jualah motivasi mau memajukan diri.hehehhe terus teringat my colleague punya iklan susu tidak rasmi " satu sudu untuk hari ini satu sudu untuk masa depan"!!for me by writing good memories could not get rid of bad memories but it really help cheering me up!and hen im reading it anyway this post must stop here. start suda melalut nda lama ni~